as of late, i've been feeling a heavy heart every time i have to travel. i just can't imagine how i'll make it through the week because i just want to stay home with my husband and spend time with my family. man! that's when i cry out to God and tell Him how much i need His strength. He is the One who sustains me through it all.
i'm averaging about 2 weeks of travel every month. when i first started it was 3 weeks some months. i just started my new job last july, so i dived right in to all the work and never looked back. now that it's 8 months later, the traveling has gotten old and i'm worn out. i dont know how some people do it. man! :( it's usually one week at home, the next week travel, one week at home, the next week travel...and during the weeks when i AM at home, it's just catching up on laundry, cleaning the house and trying to find time with friends and family. traveling is so disruptive!
so i really need God's peace...and this is when He reminds me that it's not about ME. i've been traveling down to one of our offices because upper management decided to shut it down, so people are losing their jobs at the end of this month. i have to be onsite to assist with issues that arise and to help answer questions. i'm also onsite to ensure the closing goes according to plan. the people who are still working have not been able to find jobs or they're waiting for their severance.
there are some individuals who have found jobs and moved on already from the company. so you can imagine that the people who are still working are not in the best mood...it's a difficult situation and it's very tough for them. we have a few single women who are not married and so there is no other "help" in their household, but somehow the bills still need to be paid...please pray that these people know the Lord and that their hope is in Him or that through this experience they would come to know Him! i hope and pray that they will find jobs soon...that's how God reminds me that: "Pajjar, even though you don't want to travel, this isn't about you right now."
God's love is strong, just like jon foreman's song. His love is strong and that is where my heart lies. all of my hope and confidence is in the Lord and His Great Love. if you have a moment, please help keep me in your prayers. i know the focus should not be on me, but it's so hard to leave my husband and the comfort of my home tomorrow. give me strength, Jesus!
-p
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Pajjar, I am praying for you. I know how difficult traveling is for you. But like you said, I think you're there for a reason to offer hope to those who are in need of it. Maybe God is just expanding your perspective of those who need Him in their lives.
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