we are beautiful!

i fell in love with this song once i heard it. it speaks of the greatest gift of all: God's unconditional love for us and His ability to make something good out of us sinful beings.

ive found much comfort in this song. but contradictorily i have also felt so undeserving of it. how could God make something beautiful out of me? i am so unworthy and undeserving. but thats the beauty of God's love, isn't it? that none of us deserve His love and yet we have it.

i sometimes envy other Christians and think that they must not have any struggles. they live this "perfect Christian" life and i assume that they must have such close relationships with God and live in bliss and joy each day! i mentioned this to a friend and he said, "but doesn't each person have their own struggles with God? isn't it a lifelong thing?"

i dont know, but i sure hope so! *sigh* i yearn to be at that point in life where i have a greater understanding of this life and of God. im not seeking perfection, but peace with who i am and the life that God has for me. to know God = to know myself better, rite? im already 28 years old, but i still have so much to learn!