God's grace is sufficient.

last nite i went to see "he's just NOT that into you" with my coworkers and boss and i must say, i loved it! every single woman should watch it, whether single, dating, or married. it's dead on as far as wat women and men do in dating relationships. i highly recommend watching it and even johan is thinking about watching it too. hehe. it made me so grateful for johan and i wanted to come home and give him a huge hug b/c i dont have to go through that anymore lol.

so it's been a pretty rough weekend, but all-in-all im still sitting here ALIVE. thats wat matters. when i think about the things im going thru, it feels like hell. but when i think about my troubles in comparison to other people's, mine seem so miniscule. even though it sucks to be going thru wat i am rite now, im thankful that im still alive, i still have all my limbs, my husband and family and loved ones are okay. so i thank God for that.

johan and i went to the Nudge the World event on friday nite and listened to author William Paul Young. he wrote "the shack." he was an ordinary guy and didn't even intend for the book to be published. he really wrote it for his kids. he was amazingly honest and open. he said so many wonderful things regarding our relationship with God and im sure johan will blog about it too. but one of the things that he said was that if he has grace sufficient for ONE DAY--he's thankful. he can't think about tomorrow or next week yet, but if he has enough grace for that day, he's blessed.

that really challenged me to look at my life in a different perspective. i dont know why im going thru the things i am....but who cares.....wat matters is that i trust God to get me thru it. and if im still alive tomorrow-thats great! cuz i got thru another day......He's been providing for us ever since we got married. we make enough money to pay the bills. we have food on the table every day. our cars are running fine and all of our loved ones are safe. this is wat matters most. thank you Jesus. i feel so blessed.

over the weekend johan and i bought a macbook for me since my laptop got stolen. im a first-time user. ive been a loyal PC/microsoft user all my life (except when my dad had his old apple back in the day with the huge black disks). johan kept asking if something was wrong at the apple store b/c i seemed down...there were a few reasons of course: i knew we were making a purchase that we didn't have the money for and also i felt bad for being a traitor. lol. i really like my laptop so far, but i feel guilty for having something so nice when i dont really deserve it. sure, you need a laptop when you're in law school, but i felt bad for buying something that i didn't have money for. i wish the police could just find the guy who robbed me and give me back my laptop. but that's wishful thinking.....ill never see my dell ever again.

so im here at school all day until johan picks me up later tonite. ive got tons of work to do, but i just wanted to drop by and say hello. i hope you guys all have a wonderful week! God bless.

love,
p