i feel so stressed. i thought taking work off would help, but now its different personal and family issues. *i just have to keep taking deep breaths.* ive been studying since may, so our blog has kind of been at a standstill while johan keeps up with everything in our life that must go on (dishes, cooking, bills and try to relax from a long day at work) and while i study.
like johan wrote in the post below, im taking off all of july to study full-time. we'll see if it makes a difference! i think it is and will, but i also am more grounded this time around. ive been working with a tutor and he's helped me to see that if i at least see an improvement in my score, i can be proud of myself. its hard to say that to myself without having negative thoughts about my intelligence, but hey-if i have to take this exam a third time i will.
i dont think ive needed God as much as i've needed Him today. today seems like such a stressful day! i want to give up, i want to go hide somewhere, i want to take a vacation and escape these petty, trivial, little annoyances. God help me find peace in You! tomorrow will be a new day and brighter days are to come.
my devotion today reads:
"Thank God He does give us difficult things to do! ... It tests us for all we are worth."
thank God for testing my patience and strength today. i hope i haven't failed, but i feel really close to giving up.
-p
1 comment:
pajjar, we will do great regardless of how the exam goes...God has great plans for all of us...I hope you're feeling and doing better today...take care.
-my
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