DREAMS o' MINE

i really want to own my own business!!! ive been dreaming about it lately, whether it's a coffee shop with cozy couches and stools along the windows on a busy street like grand ave or in uptown somewhere. or maybe it would be a wedding shop with millions of dresses for brides that i would co-own with my sisters. or maybe it would be my own law firm?? whatever it is, i just want to own my own business someday. im not a chef, but owning a restaurant would be pretty cool too!

i dont know, there are A LOT of things i want to accomplish in my life, i.e. owning a business, writing a book about my parents, or living abroad. im not even finished with law school yet and here i am dreaming about things i want to do that doesn't even involve working and paying off my loans! haha. i suppose those things will happen regardless, but my concern isn't about that rite now. my concern is whether i'll be happy? whether i'll be living to my greatest potential? not whether im building wealth or creating a stable income for my family!

sure, those things are nice, but honestly, johan and i have never been the type to want to get married, buy a house, pay off a mortgage, and pop out some babies. thats great for other people, but thats not wat we want. i know that i'm never going to be "rich". the only reason i would want to have more money is to help my family out, like my parents or siblings. but as far as wealth for myself and johan, i dont really care. i dont know if we ever will want a house? im not even sure if i want to have kids? ive dreamt of adoption all my life......but never about having my own kids, and as you know in the hmong culture, thats a big taboo. both my mom and mother-in-law have told me already that i need to have kids. :/ who knows, maybe in a few years i may desire that, but not now. its not something that johan and i even discussed when we were dating!

i am different and ive always been different. i think its wonderful that some people want those things in life, dont get me wrong. but its not what i want. ive never looked at people doing those things and wanted them for myself. on the contrary, i looked at individuals who travel the world, belong to organizations like UNICEF, people who do something for the greater good of humanity, and want those things for myself. buying a home? no. owning a ton of investments to build wealth? no. work as a UN ambassador to Africa for children's rights? YES! live in Bangladesh and offer microcredit loans to women to build their own business, i.e. sewing/stitching/farming, so they can sustain a living for their families? YES!

back to what i was saying. . . . . owning my own business and being my own boss is very intriguing. but if i could give everything up and live abroad, work for a bank that lends microcredit loans to indigent people, i would! sorry hun, but this is my dream (among many.) =) i dont care for the pressure to be like everybody else. i care only about what God has called me on earth to do and how i can best live out my life that pleases Him and serves His people! The Bible doesn't talk about saving up money for yourself, building wealth, or anything to that matter. However, the Bible DOES talk about caring for the poor and the widowed, loving your enemies as you love yourself, and not storing up your treasures with the things of this world. . . .am i crazy? or does this make sense to some of you?........