1 more day...

"God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
I don't care what the world throws at me now
It's gonna be alright"

yesterday we sang "salvation is here" by hillsong united at church and i just felt so much joy and peace. my test is tomorrow, but i have this weird sense of peace inside me and well, i think it's Jesus. =) ive been going crazy the last 2.5 months. i apologize to those who had to put up with my behavior. :( some friends and family would self-invite themselves over and others would take me out because they felt i needed a break. :) other friends and family slapped me across the face (figuratively) and taught me NOT to overhype this exam. watever the results are a few months from now, i dont care. if i pass, all glory and praise to God! if i dont pass, that just means i will take it again--and i will still praise God!!!!

i have plans of wat i want to do once this test is over:
--workout regularly again!
--reread "twilight" series
--watch valentine's day
--read books galore!
--spend time with my sisters and nephew
--go on weekly dates with my husband again
--decorate our apartment
--volunteer in the community again
--help my friend plan her wedding
--experiment and cook new meals for johan
--organize my clothes by color and function lol
--learn how to budget our finances better
--save money more efficiently
--have babies. syke! hahaha.

johan and i have talked about it more recently. seeing our nephew xuying makes us so happy and makes us want children. i still REALLY want to adopt children too, but i know they look at your income and how much you have saved etc, so that dream will have to be put on hold for now....we'll see, maybe we'll have kids in the next couple of years. =)



God has been so faithful to us thru the last few years and i dont know how to thank Him. so often i want God to work in my life ON MY TERMS, and He's proven over and over again that when i let my heart speak over my mind, He will reveal Himself to me. i pray that He would continue to nurture and instill in me a passionate desire to love Him better and to be Christ to others.

pastor dave and pastor steve have been preaching really great sermons at church lately. (we're going thru colossians 1). yes, we need to admonish one another in order to mature spiritually (col. 1:28). but wat's the balancing test? being able to see Christ at work in their lives as well. i think we often admonish other people because we don't see Christ in them and don't think they have Christ in their life. But God loves them, and is working a good work in them...we must be more gentle in approaching them and see them as God sees them. Lord, teach me to see You in other people!

thanks for all your prayers!
-p