im tired

the weekend was pretty eventful, even though johan was gone for hc3. from what he's told me so far--and im sure you'll be getting a blog from his POV--friday was a pretty rough day, and then everything went smoothly after that. he ran into some old friends and had a lot of fun with the aurora peeps. i could tell as soon as he walked thru the door that he had gained a little weight. hehehe. i think it was all the fast food and buffet! but its okay, it was good to see him.
my parents decided to surprise us (along with taying) for the weekend, so that was pretty cool. it was great to see them, but it was even more fun hanging out with taying! he's so big and grown up now. when he left, i cried b/c i felt so lonely w/o him. =(
my parents came for their best friend's son's wedding. i saw a bunch of peeps at the wedding too that i haven't seen for years, so that was really great. a bunch of the cali pple at our sac church came too. overall it was a good weekend. i spent saturday nite and all day sunday doing homework. it sucks guys. i feel so UN-motivated. i just want to be lazy and lay around and not do anything anymore. its like ive lost the heart to even TRY. please pray for me.
i read on cnn yesterday that women worry A LOT more than men. johan and i have already experienced this in our marriage. its soooo hard, b/c once i start worrying, i can't stop. i start thinking one month ahead, two months ahead, and all of a sudden, im a year out and then 2 years out. its a horrible habit. johan hates it when i worry. but i can't help it. its like im worrying for the both of us. we're so tight on money rite now. i love my husband, but i wonder if it would have been easier to wait until we were both done with school to get married. money is just so tight. it affects every area of our life and swallows us whole if we don't trust in God. so each day, we're trusting that He'll bring us through a day, and then a week, and then amazingly He's brought us through a month.

thank God that we may be able to visit the inlaws, aurora pplz, and my friend bruce next week. we have fall break so we are planning (even tho we dont have $) to come visit b/c we need a break. well its more like i need a break, since johans been having all this fun! :p but it wont be an easy 2 weeks before our little vaca. i have to turn in my partial brief of 17 pages and then do a presentation for class next week. YIKES! i wish it were friday already.........miss you guys and love you guys.

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