hey guys! could you guys help pray for me? i am really feeling the pressure as the bar is getting closer and im losing faith in myself. it's down to the last month (the bar is feb. 23 & 24) and i am feeling overwhelmed and worried that i can't do this...
last nite i was telling johan about my day and sharing my stories from my lecture classes. i thought they were pretty entertaining stories as a law graduate, but apparently johan didn't think they were all that funnie. LOL. so anyways, johan basically told me that my stories were lame and that my days are depressing because all i do is go to classes, listen to the lectures, study and talk to my husband. i suppose i need some more human interaction and that it's okay to take breaks sometimes...
i was okay for the first month yunno, studying and going to all the classes, and feeling fine about the exam. then BAM yesterday i started fretting and worrying that i might blank out when the test is put in front of me.
i dont know wat it is...it's the first and hopefully last of my mental breakdowns. i know i can do this...i just need to buckle down and discipline myself. you may not see or hear from me for awhile and i apologize to my friends and family, but i want to give this my best shot. i want to be able to say after taking my test that i tried my best and gave it my best efforts...i dont want to have any regrets about not studying enough, so i have to be really hard on myself. *sigh*
it's so much pressure on me because my whole livelihood depends on this exam! i may not find a job if i dont get this license....i mean, if i dont pass, it's okay and i can try again. but AT LEAST i can say i gave it my all....
thanks for all of your support and encouragement throughout the years. i am so blessed to have friends who share in my joy of graduating! but at the same time, i am thankful to those who have kicked my butt when i needed to shape up and study harder and to stop making excuses (you know who u are!)
alright, gotta get back to reading. thank u all!
love,
p
3 comments:
ILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU!
you make me very proud! and I have hope that you will be able to endure this time.. remember God will lead you through it and we are here supporting and rooting you on!
Love ya
Lysa
oh, Pajjar...don't worry too much...remember? i know you will do wonderful! and also, girl...anytime you need a girl to talk to, or just to hang out with...just call me. and i will try to do the same ...more often too. you know, we should try to do girls day more. i think you and i need it. hehe.
we will pray for you....but i know you will hit it out of the park! mauh!
-anna
Don't worry hun. We all know that you'll do fine and pass! Then we will really celeberate... in Paris! Paris in Las Vegas! Like in the Hangover! It's gonna be KA-LAZI!!!
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