a prayer request

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

how many times have we all read that verse? how many times have i quoted that verse for other people? i seem to be saying that quite often these days to friends (including to myself):


"don't worry, God's got a great plan for you."

"God's plan for you has endless possibilities."

"trust in Him. He's got amazing things planned out for you."


i had a breakthrough with God this morning. i don't have all the answers yet...but as i journaled, prayed, and cried, so many emotions came out of me: happiness, hope, anger, resentment, and finally defeat. i know that i've got some things to work out between me and God. but im glad i put it all out there this morning with Him.

im still struggling with A LOT of things. im not quite THERE yet, wherever THERE is....but i voiced it and now He's heard it from my own mouth. He's always known it, but i had to acknowledge it in order to start dealing with it. all of this talk is very broad, but please pray for me. i am having a hard time believing that God's got a plan for me, much less a "great" plan....

pastor erwin mcmanus reminded me of this verse this morning: "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--His good, pleasing, and perfect will." Romans 12:2

i need to be transformed by the renewal of my mind. ive gotten stuck in a rut and my eyes are blind to His perfect will. please pray that my mind will be renewed because then and only then will i be transformed....

thanks friends....

-p